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At work

“Hi! How are you?”

“Fine! You?”

I am “okay”

(I am not okay)

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Out in public

“How are you holding up?”

“Well, I haven’t fallen over!”

((canned laughter))

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With friends

“How’s it been? Is there anything I can do?”

“It’s hard but I’m managing.”

((managing? What does that even mean?))

“Just, what you’re doing... be my friend.”

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In the car

At home

In my room

I crumble

I haven’t gone a day

Without crying

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It’s been

1 month

15 days
(is that all? is it that long?)

Since it happened

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Since she died

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Since she was killed

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*gasp*

Smile

Deflect

Rinse

Repeat